I feel defeated. Do you know what I mean? I feel like I just want to quit…everything. Ministry, my family, my relationships. Have you ever felt like that? I feel so pressured (which I’m not) to do so much. I feel like everyone in the BCM, my church, my family expects more than I can give. A leader is someone who gives responsibilities to others to create leaders. I do this and stuff doesn’t get done. People don’t seem to either remember to do it, constantly ask me how to do it (which in turn I end up doing it…all they do is order it). My sense of trust is gone.
I’m always tired because my mind never stops…there is no finish line. There is always something else to do in ministry. Messages to write, meetings to attend, people to call. There is no way of quantifying an end. No way of “feeling” accomplished. When I was a server there was always an end and a way of feeling accomplished…How much money I made that day.
Is there a web app to fix this God?